Death and a Birthday.
Posted on Jul 17th, 2008
by
Rachel
On Saturday one of my boss' brother died of terminal lung cancer. THe funeral was on Wednesday and my birthday is today Thursday. She took the beginning of the week off, but is now back in the office. When she called on Monday, she told she would be in Thursday and Friday because, well Thursday is my Birthday and Friday I'm taking off to Celebrate, I told her it wasn't necessary and that I would be here on Friday, no need for her to rush into the office, however she insisted that I continue as planned, I again said later that day that I would be be here and she refused and told me to continue my plans. So I did, and she's here, but I feel guilty, I know that life keeps moving even when we or are loved one's pass, but how can she move on so quickly. And even today she brought me in a bouquet of roses and fresh fruit as a cake, and again I feel like it's wrong. Which is even more strange because when it comes to death, I'm very jaded, I guess maybe the right word, I'm comfortable with it and accept it, so is it possible that she's the same way, or is she good at functioning under crisis/strong emotions, he was young but they new it was coming. I guess I never no how to act around death, I have my opinion, but I just don't think that everyone agrees with it, so I'm very cautious. I don't know maybe, I'm just over analyzing or maybe she's ok, and really has accepted it already and is ok, or maybe she doesn't show emotions at work, which is also hard for me to grasps because mine are alway out and here for everyone to see!






